Sleepless night

Since I wrote last night...Letting some feelings out...I could not sleep.I felt wound up,I tried reading,listening to music...cleaning.I finaly just took a double dose of my ambien and an ativan(both legal prescriptions)and sweet sleep.No dreams...except one brief one I think...that I remember...bees flying around my face...I do not know what that means...if indeed it has a meaning at all.Oh well...I am going to keep writing ..I am findind its becoming a real release for me...its private and my kids do not know...this will help me better help them